Life Update

So, I know this is long over due......

Over this past year, I started looking at homes, for a variety of reason. The $8,000 government tax credit was a good incentive. I figured I was going to be staying in Rochester for a few more years. But mainly because I was bored and lonely while my roommate took a week long trip to Guatemala was why I started in the first place.

It was an off and on thing. I was would really excited about looking at houses, then it felt like a chore. Nothing really struck out at me.

Then I round one that I really like. Put in an offer, and after a few weeks of back and forth, we finally agreed upon it. Start getting the ball in motion to ultimately own the house. Had two months to close, plenty of time.

Then it starts to get crazy. Inspection comes and goes; 2 weeks gone by. Appraisal comes back a little lower. Go back to home owner to reach an agreement. Well, that process took 1 month. I could say the details, but lets just say the other realtor cannot follow the flow of money (i.e. in her counter offers, she kept losing $3000 somewhere and could not grasp the concept that I would have to make that money up myself.....I even made a powerpoint for her, but still, over her head). Finally we get that settled, but at this point, I only have 10 days till my original closing.

Well, I put it in overdrive and pretty much get all of the stuff done on my side, including lining up moving help. However, I get an email last friday saying that home homeowner can no longer close on monday! Why you ask? Cause as Power of Attorney for her husband (who is currently in Iraq, which is very respectful), she did not have the proper documents to allow her to close on her end. In other words, you the piece of paper she was suppose to keep? Yeah that went to Iraq with him. And now we have to wait till it gets in the mail.

You would think as a professional realtor who would have to deal with this situation at least occasionally would make sure that all the proper documents were there. My realtor is just as frustrated as I am at this point......

At least I got the OK to move my stuff into the new place. I can't officially live there, but at least I am out of the way at my old place.

Hopefully by friday we will have this all figured out.....if not, I get to live in a house that is not legally mine yet.....

Minor update: No spoilers

Big things have been happening in my life. Will share more details later.

Just enjoy my twitter posts on the side to enjoy what I have been doing till a real update comes.

Montana and my T-Shirt

Funny story. Back when I was in college, I my parents bought a ranch. Then a few years later I bought a T-shirt that said "Montana: Yes we do have electricity"

Turns out that shirt was only partially right.

It seems through out my stay here this week, the power has been on and off multiple time. It seemed to focus around two days after some pretty decent storms. First day the power went out about 8 times, mostly just on, off stuff (the type that starts to annoy you as you need to turn things back on such as the DVD player or Computer). The longest it was off that day was about 2 hours.

Then yesterday it started doing the same thing. Except this time around 1500, it just went out. And stayed out. The power didn't come back on until sometime late in the night, so at least a good 8-10 hrs of no power. Thus no shower, no bathroom.

Man, I didn't think I would be roughing it out here this much....

Life Update

I am alive.

Contrary to my lack of blog postings......

Transparency and why I am so happy all the time.....

So, I told myself this year, I was going to attempt to me more transparent with my feelings, etc with people. I am a pretty reserved guy for the most part, I think this might help. Plus, it has a bit of awesomeness in it.

So, here you go for a new post:

My sophomore year of college, I think I hit rock bottom. Depression runs pretty deep in my family, and I am not immune. It was a real rough year for me.

I can thank a single person for person for allowing me to come out of that year alive. No kidding. He knows who he is and I really appreciate his friendship at that point in my life.

So, I did a bunch of writing, etc, and out of it came this awesome poem. I have been wanting to share it with everyone, but I felt pretty ashamed about the topic. But here it is:


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Shell

You may think it is rage or hate
but it is passion that drives the gun
a passion burning so deep it ignites
and sends its messenger on the run

A gun is just another tool
simple yet ingenious in design
A barrel, hammer, pin and trigger
with a bullet do the motives align

In my hand I hold an empty shell
never loaded or is it already spent
I cannot tell by the case
I don’t know the extent of its torment

I sit here staring at it
its shiny metal skin
I don’t know if I should laugh or cry
if I should run away or grin

I stand here waiting
trying to figure out its meaning
either way my life is spent
my soul is always weaning

Is my soul dead
or am I in a rude awake
is it an inevitable fate
or something that I can try to shake

The shell is like my life
either never begun or already gone
both are useless to me now
the message hit dead on.

And now I have two empty shells
resting in my open palm
my mind becomes opened and clear
and I am lost in the present calm

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So, after that horrible year, capped off by a pretty significant moment in my life, I decided that I was sick of living like that. So I decided that I was going to be happy. And I have found that attitude can get a person pretty far in life. So, that is why I am always smiling and saying hi to people. Because such a simple thing can change a person's life. (plus it doesn't hurt finding a few good friends who rock your world).

And I am not here to say that attitude can get you through anything, and that it has made my life perfect. My life still sucks at times, but I find it easier to get through. No more pity parties for me.

So, thanks friend. I really do love you much and have much to thank you for. The last 5 years have been awesome.

So, how is that for transparency?

And disclaimer: if you are thinking about hurting yourself, etc, please please talk to someone about it. People will listen.

Blog vs Twitter

Or this should be titled "Why I enjoy Twitter more than my actual blog."

Twitter is just so simple. 140 Characters. It really makes you condense all your thoughts and actions. Never having to formulate long articles on what I did. Micro-blogging can be done in almost an instant, and that is what I make Twitter to be for me. My Micro-blog. When I write in my blog I feel almost required to write down all my thought processes (which if you know me, you don't know half the stuff that goes through my brain.)

Updating my twitter several times a day is almost more convenient than logging into blogger and doing the exact same thing.

Also, it allows me to get reduced to what I do best: make up short, clever, and witty remarks and statements.

Short. Sweet. Simple. I love it. You should check it out. Then follow me. @iamdorg

Change

When people think of change, they think of something immediate. That is what change is right? Going from one thing to another? The biggest changes should be those that you notice instantly, right? Sure, that can be change, but I think there is much more to it.

I think the biggest changes are those that you can't really see until you step back and look at the much larger picture. Instead of looking from minute to minute, day to day, we need to look month to month, year to year. It is amazing how the little changes in my life are magnified when looking through this lens. And it is all those little changes that have brought me to where I am today.

Change should be a constant aspect of one's life. We should always be trying to shape and mold our existence into something that is better than our current selves, and it is not easy. If it was, then wouldn't everyone have already done it? It is a feeling of conviction that should be the driving force.

Right now, my heart is heavy with the many things that I need to do to make myself that better person. I need to be more conscious of my actions, more aware of my presence, more mindful of those around me. I need to do so much more. But I know that change is coming my way because these things are on my heart. And I am not going to change overnight.

Like I said, a few years from now, I will be there. Just got to let the change happen in me.