Contradiction

So, I basically suck that this whole blogging thing, as evidenced by the lack of posts. The idea is to be transparent and ramble etc., but that is not me at all.

I am envious of those who can be blunt and open with their lives. I wish I could be like them in some ways, but fundamentally I am reserved and self-aware of the things I let others know. I censor myself to not allow anyone to get a grasp on who or what I am, which is the antithesis of the whole blogging community.

In nerddom, I would be known as a "lurker." I actively pursue the details of everyone's lives and opinions while I myself sit in relative anonymity.

I am a voyeur who lives behind his own curtains.